Thursday, September 30, 2010

Ex Mess 1987

It’s Christmas Eve, and I find myself walking home in the rain, alone for the first time in years, carrying the bottle of Italian red that “Santatini” left for me under the tree at Tim’s house. I’ve never liked Christmas at the best of times, but the last four months have been particularly trying, and even if the party did manage to cheer me a little, watching myself act out this holiday drama has left me feeling worse than I started. And since even that’s not enough, come midnight she just has to phone.
     “It’s not too late, I hope.”
Days later and I’m still playing the Roxy Music I swiped from the party, one song, over and over, trying to explain my dilemma to Tony.
     “We broke up in August,” I say. “And here she comes in December with the perfect Christmas present. She couldn’t get that together when we were actually going out, but now that we’re supposedly trying to ‘still be friends,’ she’s nicer than she’s ever been, and the nicer she is, the more miserable I feel.”
     And Tony says: “Of course you’re depressed, you idiot. That has to be the saddest song I’ve ever heard.”


  1. if sad songs make you depressed you probably should not listen to them

  2. Roy, thanks for linking this "ending." Sad reality...I had a relationship end at the holidays many years ago. It's an especially difficult time for that to happen.

  3. Music can bring back so many memories. I still, to this day, cannot listen to a couple of songs. I quickly switch the station or turn it right off.

  4. I like the word play of the title! Could you possibly get rid of that screen to post...I did with mine, my visitors were happier and my traffic went up - with no trash. Think about it!

    1. I want to keep things as simple as possible, but I don't understand what "screen" you're talking about. Please ex-plain. ;-)

  5. Without sadness therewill never be happiness! Without darkness no light!
    Clever X post!
    Wil, ABC Team.

  6. Oh, YES. Totally relatable!
    ROG, ABC Wednesday team

  7. Just listened to a sad song and it brought back many memories...

  8. Great post, amazed and sad that it is still so fresh in your mind 25 years on...

  9. I like the photo you put with it, too.

  10. Who is Tony? He clearly doesn't get it.

    I'm not sure how this Sunday Scribblings works. Will look it up.

    Like others, I admire the word play in the title, and there's a feeling of having been there in the writing.

  11. i totally need his outfit as well...hahaha...i honestly dont know if i ever heard that song but there are def songs that evoke those moments and feelings...

  12. exmess..ha.. sometimes songs take us right to the heart of the heaviest emotions..


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